Who am I?
Homebirth midwife, transitioning vegan, aged 45 years, who loves eating avocados and challenging myself with yoga.
Why have I created this?
A few years ago I experienced my first period of burnout. My relationship with food has challenged me since I was a teenager. And I can be a workaholic.
I realised that I needed to be more balanced and kind to myself in order to be healthy, and so have been on a journey of self discovery and self development…I haven’t reached an end destination yet and am still travelling.
Through my journal entries and current explorations into wellness in mind, body and spirit, I hope to share my journey, weaving together birthwork and wellness, to inspire others to take their own steps towards holistic health.
Me and Birth
I felt a calling to be a midwife when I realised that having had two children I might never again be part of pregnancy and birth, and all it entailed. So after three years training with Bournemouth University, one baby girl later and the loss of my father, I qualified as a midwife in 2002.
The training became three pivotal years of my life, focusing on developing true ‘with woman’ skills in physiological birth, waterbirth and out of hospital birth. I was privileged to spend time as a student with several independent midwives, including the late Tricia Anderson, and Mary Cronk. They taught me that birth is inherently safe and our bodies can be trusted to do this work.
In 2003 I left the UK and worked in Spain for nearly three years and whilst there I attended my first doula training weekend “Paramanadoula” taught by Dr Michel Odent. In a system more medicalised than ours, this was where my belief in undisturbed birth was cemented during my first independent birth, in an oxytocin filled bathroom, where a new dad caught his own baby.
Since then I have supported women from hospital to home, believing in the inherent power within them to make choices and birth their babies in their own way, on their own terms. I studied with Kate Woods at Conscious Birthing and was mentored by Maddie McMahon with the full intention of letting midwifery go in order to serve women on their own terms.
But midwifery isn’t ready to let me go just yet.
The knowledge of science can be used to benefit women and their babies, however I believe that technology should be used judiciously and with full regard for the individual, their own health, circumstances and personal choice. I have full understanding and respect for evidence based care, but feel we should explore how this can support a woman’s’ innate physiological ability to birth her baby.
I also believe we should consider all forms of evidence.
Birth is not just about randomised controlled trials. It’s about being human, sharing stories, and the effects of culture and belief. Mind, body and something transcendent.
- beyond or above the range of normal or physical human experience
- surpassing the ordinary; exceptional
- existing apart from and not subject to the limitations of the material universe
Midwifery has not been an easy journey for me. I have reached the point of leaving several times. Some for believing I was not cut out for modern midwifery, others for believing I could not give the care that women and their babies deserved. But I’m still here.
I currently work as community midwife, serving the women of West Cornwall, attending homebirths as part of a great team. I’m studying an MSc in Advanced Midwifery Practice and am really excited to be joining Kate Woods, to help teach on her Conscious Birth Educators course this year.
This is my only tattoo. On my lower forearm.
On tough days, bare below the elbows,
a daily reminder why I do this job.
I love to write and share the knowledge I have learned with women, and you can see lots of my articles on here in the blog section, or you can search for something specific in the search bar.
Breathing Out a Baby..or not. The Mother magazine (2014)
Reflections on Midwifery in Spain. RCM Midwives. 2007 Sep;10(8):384-5.
A Taste of Freedom. Association of Radical Midwives, October 2006.